My finger slipped along the spines of a row of books at Barnes and Noble as I bit the inside of my cheek. I was on a mission, while my nine-year-old daughter was standing by my side with crossed arms.
“When can we go to my section, mom?”
I smiled down at her, determined to hurry a little faster through the Christian Living section. “Just another minute, Morgan.”
I was looking for a book in particular, and it was no where to be found. I was about to give up hope when a new title caught my eye.
Ooh. I’ve been hearing a lot of hype about this book. It was written by two bloggers, and maybe I should check it out.
“Mom…are you ready yet?”
I sighed. “Yes, sweetheart.” I made a mental note to talk to my daughter about the importance of patience when we returned home while we walked towards the children’s section. We found the aisle brimming with chapter books.
“Have at it.”
She grinned before running to pick up her first choice.
Satisfied that she was finally content, I began to thumb through the book in my hand. I wanted to purchase it, but I was cautious. I’ve been known to buy a book on a whim and then never finish it because it wasn’t theologically sound more than a time or two.
Hmm…this section looks interesting. Let me skim through this other part before I decide to bring it to the checkout counter.
I turn a few pages, before pausing. This didn’t look good at all.
It’s okay to not always love being a mother. In fact, if someone tells you that they always love being a mother, than they are lying to you. These lying women end up leaving their families and cheating on their husbands. It’s okay to believe that mothering cannot truly fulfill us.
Now wait just a minute.
I’m sure that you can guess how the rest of the story turned out. I flagged down my teenager and asked her to put the book back right where it came from.
I am tired of reading Christian books that tell us that selfishness is okay. I know that you might not understand where I’m coming from, so please stick with me for a minute.
When The Lord so graciously chose me to be a mother, that became my calling. My God-ordained role. Being a mother is a ministry, and we are the ones who have been called to minister to our children.
Let’s imagine if somewhere in the Bible, someone told, say Paul, that it was okay for him to not always love the ministry position that God put him in. And then Paul said that he didn’t always love being a minister for the Lord, and that if he did say such, he would be lying.
No, instead he says, “But I do not account my life of any value nor as precious to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God.” Acts 20:24
He gave his all for God, and was always joyful in his ministry role.
He did not see his life as valuable, all he wanted to do was to finish the ministry that The Lord had put before him. This attitude was a testimony to God’s grace.
As strange as it seems, we should look to this example when mothering our children. This is the course that God has placed before us.
Do I always act according to God’s will in every given situation? No.
Was I bothered by my impatient daughter in the bookstore? A little bit.
Do I feel exasperated at times when my children don’t listen to my instructions? Yes.
Am I a perfect mother? That’s a big no.
But…I love being a mother. Every fiber of my being loves being a mother. At all times. I am not lying. I am not going to have an affair or leave my family.
And I need godly instruction as to how to love my calling even more, not to be told that it’s okay to not always love my calling.
As moms, we need to strive for God’s best for our lives, and not say that since “everyone” sins in a certain way that it is okay. If we act like it’s fine to not enjoy what God has called us to do, that is being ungrateful to God.
We need to look for godly instruction, ladies. May we realize that our calling is so great, that The Lord intends on us to be completely fulfilled in our role as we daily die to self to become more like Him.
God cares greatly for us, and I hope and pray that He will raise up some wonderful examples for us to follow. There are definitely some out there! But they are far and few between. Let’s be vigilant with our choices of reading materials, and realize that God intends for us to be fulfilled in, and to love our motherly role with our whole heart. May our lives mirror and testify to the great love and grace that The Lord has shown to us.
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